Thank you Mr. Colbert for once again supporting our troops

I wish I could figure out how to put videos in my blog, I am just not that smart, but seriously watch this and send it around

http://www.colbertnation.com/the-colbert-report-videos/402700/november-17-2011/the-word---the-1-?xrs=share_copy

My cat insists, I am the centerpiece turkeys!!!

Yeah

It feels incredibly good to be back home in Northern California.

San Francisco Bound!

Heading to my City by the Bay. Driving with the hubs and baby and a suv load of crap. I simply am an overpacker. Let's all accept it and move on. Got my bff's 40th bday bash. Yes I am that old. A client. Yes I still get referrals in Norcal. Shall we get some soon in SoCal. Thanks. Blogging from my iPhone as the passenger. Gtg. Gotta puke. Have a great weekend y'all!

Switching teams

our kitty is getting real comfortable here. probably too comfortable. we just had to track her down in the parents bedroom hanging out with them and the dog. this does not bode well for our rode trip this weekend sans kitty.  i hope my baby doesn't switch teams this easily. i hope i can become more like my kitty and feel so at home. its not anything anyone is doing. it is just me. and my neurotic self that can't stop beating myself up about this situation.  i am locking down the kitty in our wing until we leave. that is final.

A real update

Now that all that drama that caused me to change blogs is through with let's get back to what is really important, blogging about myself! We have been in California a little over three weeks and I have to say things are going well.  No I have yet to get a job, but I am still working on it.  I am doing my best to have a positive and proactive attitude. So far it has not yielded anything substantial besides controlling the number of meltdowns and raging bitchy wife sessions I have. However, those aforementioned are not entirely absent. 

It does feel incredibly good to be back in our home state and sorta on the path toward our goals. I would like a bit more forward movement but I try to be patient and focus on daily steps.  It has been a huge adjustment living with my in-laws, but actually it has been easy and nice. It is just, I have not lived with my parents in 21 years, and to be suddenly living with my husband's.......................

I feel like an old piece of fish that is stinking up the trash. I know I am the only one that feels this way, but the guilt, shame, and horror are present as much as I try to tamp them down.  Luckily, everyone else does not seem to be plagued like I.

My mother-in-law loves having her grandchild around and knowing that she is helping her family.  Truly that is what she enjoys most. So, her home is more crowded, it doesn't seem to bother her much. Or at least she doesn't show it under my ever watchful overly analytical and paranoid eyes, I have yet to detect it. 

For my father-in-law, I think it is more of an adjustment. He is used to having the house to himself all day long.  He is retired and is spending his days renovating their home, taking care of the dog and competitively bike racing. Basically he is a badass. But, ya know now he has his son, daughter-in-law, grandson, a cat, and two snakes crowding his days. I think on some small level he might enjoy the company???

Their dog, a very yappy Papillion, I am truly very proud of. I thought the dog would be the aggressor towards our cat. Nope. My cat is the bitch and the dog is showing remarkable restraint. Truly I think the cat is making the best adjustment out of everyone. The cat has five times the house to roam, 4 times the number of people to vex, and a dog to "play with".  The cat has returned to sleeping in the bed with us, purring frequently, and generally being quite the sweetie. In Georgia she pretty much kept to herself. 

The baby, is having some bumps. His sleep has gone all fubar and he waking up throughout the night, sometimes ten times a night and I REFUSE to let him cry it out. So, yeah, no sleep for me these days. 

My husband, is very happy to be home, is getting ready to start school in January, and is enjoying some very well deserved downtime. That is when I am not pestering him to do things.  I am not showing remarkable restraint. 

The snakes. Well my mother-in-law is not so happy with the ginormous monstrosity of a cage smack dab in the middle of her den. Um, a X-mas tree is supposed to go there. I am staying out of it. Not my problem anymore right?

Me. I am so happy we are here and on this path, no regrets or second-guessing, albeit as mentioned before a bit horrified.  However, the hubs and I as always are functioning as a remarkable team. We have always tackled challenges well.  Yep that is why I married him. Basically, I do not think there is another soul on the face of this earth that I could tread this path with and still be so in love with. 

That's what I get right?

So I am an idiot and thought I had concealed my identity well enough that a certain someone would not find my blog. Well I commented on a childhood friend's blog and used my real name so she would know it was me. And I guess that allowed a search engine to bring up my comment and then track back to my blog. And now the person whom has not had access to my life by mutual actions and decisions has read my blog. And probably printed it out and is doing the very thing that resulted in them not being a part of my life.

I mean I put up a blog so this is what can happen.  So what I think I will do is start a new blog and you have found it.  If you are a former reader, welcome back!

And if you are that person that was the impetus for the move, please know I have scrubbed you clean from this blog. While my feelings and thoughts were real and valid, displaying them in a public forum was not okay. So, if you have found me again, rest assured you will never be mentioned here again. I simply ask that you be respectful of the information you found. It is my life and my choices. It is not your place to judge, denigrate and pathologize. Thank you.